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so you know how i had that horrible habit of falling for the wrong people? Well i did it again and it is proving harder to get over than i thought it would be. I'm straddling the line between completely ignoring him and trying to keep up the pretense of a friendship. Neither are working for me. This is of course complicated by the big decision not yet made. There are the random moments though when I'm not forcing myself to sound light and breezy and I'm just talking to my friends however that is usually followed by the, he is so adorable crap and I'm back where i started. fuckity, the old me would have danced him out of her head and spent a few weekends being a make-out slut however that is not me anymore, I've matured I'm older and wiser so.....i'm guessing there will be a few listening to sad song nights in my future. again, fuckity.