Hey is it August already!?

Too busy to blog, blah, blah, blah...excuses.

There has been more than enough to discuss however I have had trouble letting go of them. Basically I indulged my masochistic side and let all the bad wash over me. It wasn't pretty and I pretty much drank half of our bar. The highlights are pretty standard...heavy family drama, school decisions, work boredom, and a dash of boy problems. Lets move on though, I don't want to focus on things that are happening to me. I would rather focus on how I am dealing with life.

First is the decision to not be bound by school anymore. Next May I am moving the smart money is on NYC (for some more book learning) however I have decided that I have made up my mind on that. I learned through a contact of mine that an assistant professor job will be available next year at a school in Seattle so it has jumped up the list. Though to be honest my itch to leave Denton behind has reached such a critical mass that I am keeping all avenues open. The main obstacle being money. Now if I were to get a job before I moved somewhere that would be awesome but in anticipation that it might not work out that way I have decided to cut back...A LOT! Seriously I spend way to much on stupid shit, I go out way more than I should. Its all stuff that makes sense though I'm not turning into a hermit who lives off of ramen for the rest of her life. For instance books, sometimes I'll just go out to the B&N and buy 2 or 3 books...why!?! Chances are I could find the books online for way cheaper or I could even use my freakin library card. Again yes I know these are all things that make sense I've just allowed my self to spend out of boredom and laziness.

I'm also trying to be a much better food shopper. This really ties into the next change which is that I have started working out again. Part of the saving money program requires that I don't eat more than one meal out a week (although last week I didn't eat out once...awesome). So if i'm eating at home it doesn't take long to get tired of frozen dinners. So i'm making a menu and I only by food needed for the menu. Also tied into this is cutting back on drinking...it hasn't worked out so well lately but I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

So barring any large world ending emergencies I hope to have a comfortable nest egg saved for my move. This has the mother freaking out because home life has been especially crazy lately and I know that she depends on me a lot.

And yes there was some weird boy stuff. There is that thing people always say "I didn't lie to you, I just didn't tell you." It is such an effing lame thing to say. I may not be the most assertive girl but I don't fucking break so easily. I won't lie to you (all 2 of you reading) I am hurt and sad and just a little bit mad but I am not destroyed.

I'll try to update the diet/money saving progress. I'll maybe even dedicate a few entries to just those things